By: Maria Ramirez
The other day, out of nowhere, I had a breakdown.
I was in class, about to leave to come to the Houston Chronicle, and all of a sudden I just started thinking about all the things going on my life, my worries.
It was as if my mind was getting attacked!
I honestly believe it was…
I was thinking about how my mom got a mammogram done and thankfully she doesn’t have any sort of cancer. But it was still bothering me that my mom is sick, and getting older. I was thinking about the fact I’m a senior in high school about to graduate and how I need to figure what college I want to go to. I was thinking about how I am still evicted and don’t have a home…. I as well was upset because I am secretly randomly insecure about my body at times. I’ll tell people all the good things I think about myself, but sometimes I really go home and feel so ugly. And usually I’ll just pray about it and I’ll feel better. But it was this day I just couldn’t think of one thing positive.
I was REALLY LOST.
But then I went for a run. Now something you should know, I’m not the most physically active person, but I love to exercise.
On my walks with God, he always teaches me something new.
He told me on my walk to stop worrying about tomorrow. His word says:
“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
I felt so much better because, after I talked to him, I began speaking life over myself and felt so new! I felt much better 🙂
Okay, I bet your wondering how is this relevant to breaking down?
Living unashamed in my life is also addressing my imperfections. I told God that I felt done with everything, and later apologized because, in reality, I’M NOT DONE.
I have so much to do and fulfill in God’s purpose before I die. I have so much to say and tell the world.
Living 116 in my breakdowns is being able to tell Jesus that I’m wrong, that I need him and that I can’t do it without him.
I have a song request for you.
This is a rap song that has gotten me through my week and has been very encouraging to me. I highly recommend it to anyone reading and following along.
“Sweet Victory” By TripLee
It talks all about how our circumstances don’t determine who we are. God does! And he determines we are special and loved by him…IN EVERY WAY!